Holy crap i suck now!  Well, two more weeks and i'm a married woman!  I'm so freakin excited and stressed out right now!  I just can't wait for it to be over!  I was reading a bunch of old posts and i realized how much i have grown up in the past year.  Well, not even a year, really since i met ryan and that was about 9 months ago.  It's just been so crazy going from loving single life and saying i'm not gonna get married for like 5 more years and just reading all of these old posts about boys that i look back on now and either cringe, or just shake my head and laugh.  i've been through a lot of heartache and i've learned a lot through all of those guys.  I've learned you can't trust some people that they say you can trust or you can't believe a lot of things people say.  Never EVER judge someone or assume someone is a good person, b/c they might just come out of their shell and suprise and shock you, or maybe just hurt you in the end.  Don't let go of people who you know you can trust and who have been there through everything.  You'll always need a shoulder to cry on and have that one person there you can talk to about anything and everything that's bugging you, even if it's something about that same person.  Let people in your life not b/c YOU need them, but maybe they'll need you in the long run, if it's doesn't seem like you make a big difference to them, they might think differently, you might just save their life in the end.  Don't let stupid high school shit bug you after you've graduated..THERE IS A REAL WORLD OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL!!! But you've gotta fight for it and search for it yourself, don't sit around and assume things will just happen automatically for you.  NEVER SAY NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!  Don't let things like age, race, who someone hangs out with, bad/good habits, or anything superficial affect the way you feel about someone..they just might be your soulmate.  Believe in fate..it can be good to you.  Never act older than you are, you can look stupider than if you were acting younger!  Don't care about what people think about you, unless it's good, then you can grow on that and become that much better!  Take a compliment, it'll make you smile;  forget the insults, or just laugh at them, it'll make you smile either way.  Patience is a virtue!!  Sometimes all someone needs is a hug or a kiss and it makes their day that much better.  If something is hard for you to do at first, keep doing it and it'll become a second nature to you.  Don't shut anybody out that wants to get in your life.  Don't be scared to get hurt, you never know what could come of it.  Think, rethink, and rethink again things that you might be sure about...you don't want regrets hanging over your head forever.  live and love like it's your last day on this earth, b/c you never know, it very well could be!  Sometimes, people need to be out of your life for you to move on and be happy, even though it'll hurt like hell to get them out.  Don't doubt something if you know in your heart it's the right thing for you.  Don't let other people's oppinions effect the way you really feel...if you want something or love someone and someone else says no, fight for it and never EVER give up!!!

Well, ok now i've got all that out of my system.  It's crazy what you can learn over a year!  Stop and think about everything you've been through and be thankful for it, it makes you a better person in the end!

~*~Dani~*~